Zone...Seriously? I haven't been in my little zone for the longest time. I'm still watching what I eat of course, but I'm still not giving a shit if I don't. I don't know why. I just can't get myself to care enough. Especially with all the shit I've been going through lately. It's been a lot, but the one thing that always keeps me grounded and keeps this shitty ass feeling off my chest is gaming. Well that and my yarn, but sometimes my yarn work isn't enough and sometimes it actually just pisses me off. I guess is much like gaming. Sometimes I have great days and sometimes I want to through my Xbox out the window.
I have this stupid headache at the moment and I think I might still be hungry. Either that or thirsty. Can't figure it out.
Today I came home intent on working out since I haven't worked out at all in over a month. I was sick of it. My life has got to get back to normal at some point. I can't let my Mothers health problems completely derail me otherwise I won't be able to help her. I need to keep calm and let this issue completely wash over me. Must concentrate on staying healthy so I can keep her healthy. That's first and foremost so I'm back. Hopefully.
Today I put in a little time on my Dance Central. I was working out nearly on a daily basis for a while there and I was really happy. My idea was and will continue to be this: If I didn't work out yesterday I should work out today. That's it. No schedule, no times or days, no routine, gear or trainer. Just me, my xbox, my kinect and my game.
Don't get me wrong. I'll eventually throw a real work out in there at some point. I do have a gym membership, but I find it terribly inconvenient to go. It's also not fun at all. Everyone has been doing Crossfit at my office, but I'm not sure I'm ready for that. The last thing I want to do is hurt myself again. The only thing I want to concentrate on right now is my eating and my sweating.
So I burned about 185c today. My goal is 500 per workout but if I can get it to 300c this week I'll be happy. I would say that I'd like to burn at least 3000c per week at some point in the near future. I'm actually aiming to lose weight this time and if I can manage to do that without medication even better. Means I actually learned something.
Yeah...fucking laptop screen was too bright. No wonder my head hurt. Whatever. Time to get my fat ass to bed, but oh wait....fucking cat poo. SHIT.
I've been meaning to go see a Dr. about losing weight. Maybe seeing a Psychiatrist, but I've just not gotten around to it. The other day though Rigid came to me and told me that his military unit will be having a ball in April of next year. My heart sank when I looked for dresses online. Firstly just to get and idea of what I might be wearing and secondly to mentally prepare for what's supposed to be a very special and fun day. I'm not always big on special and fun when I don't know what I'm getting into. Upon seeing the available dresses for plus size women I decided I wouldn’t have a choice, but to lose weight. I mean seriously… How the fuck can anyone expect me to fit into any of those dresses without cinching the living fuck out of my ever expanding waist?
Even if I’m all cinched up and tucked in my boobs would look like they would be in danger of spilling out every second and my arms would look like…like…I’D LOOK ALL PUFFY! I don’t want to look puffy. All smooth down the center and puffy everywhere else. And what am I going to do about my tattoo? I’ll have to get long sleeves and all the long sleeve dresses are pretty ugly. I only found 3 that I like and damn did I look. How many long sleeve formal dresses do you think will be available around spring time? HUH? TELL ME THAT? SPRING TIME!
Oh God. Every time I think about it my stomach hurts. This is why yesterday I decided to go on a real honest to god diet. A “I’m just watching what I’m eating.” diet to the rest of the world. Jeezus…my boss just walked by with a stack of scrambled eggs, hash browns and a shit ton of bacon on his plate. What---A---Dick. I love hash browns. They could be my downfall. Will I be able to pull this off for 5 whole months? I want to fit into a size 16 dress again. Size 16…can you believe it? That’s all I want (Okay, size 14 would be better). But I want to be able to do it on my own. No shakes, no herbalife, no gimmicks and no drugs with accidental but welcome side effects. Just me. Just little ‘ole me. I think I can do it. I think I can. I think I can. I think I can….no I KNOW I CAN…oh --- my --- god.
So, as I said before. Last night I perused the internet learning all I could about the Zone diet & planning my first Zone day. My friends at work will be my support & guide. They’re all health nuts. The neighbor by my desk thought I should be on a 5 block diet…When I read about it yesterday I realized he must think I’m grossly obese enough to be able to eat that way. I’d basically have to be a body builder type right? Um…I don’t think I have muscles that big under all this fat and I quite frankly don’t think I have that much fat to support. So I’m sticking with the 3 block guide for a “Large Woman”. I wear Xtra Large blouses and size 20 pants, but my pants are always a little baggy so I could technically still squeeze into a size 18. I just hate tight clothing though.
Okay, enough babble. As I said, I planned my first Zone day and even though it took me hours I think I did a pretty good job. This is what I have planned for today.
PROTEIN: 2 hb Eggs + ¼c Cottage Cheese = 3 Blocks
CARBS: 1 Apple + ½ Orange = 3 Blocks
FAT: 1½ tsp Peanut Butter = 3 Blocks
PROTEIN: ½c Cottage Cheese = 2 Blocks
CARBS: ½ Orange + Carrot = 2 Blocks
FAT: 1 tsp Peanut Butter = 2 Blocks
PROTEIN: 1 hb Egg + 2 Tukey Slices = 3 Blocks
CARBS: 2 Celery Sticks + 2/3c Boiled Potato = 3 Blocks
FAT: 2/3 tsp Mayo + 3 Pecan Halves = 3 Blocks
You’re supposed to stay away from caffeine, but I refuse so I had plain black coffee. I might have a little tea later, but I brought a lemon for my water. I should be able to make that little lemon last no problem so I’m not counting that. I can have lemon in my water for god sakes. *sigh* No soda…meh. No gum…MEH. Wait! I just looked. I can haz if I it’s sugar free! SEE "Chewing gum appears to increase the release of serotonin in the brain, which would give a calming influence. I would not be too concerned about the small amount of artificial sweeteners in the gum." ~Dr. Sears.
So far big Yay and well, yeah, not feeling great yet, but I know I will soon. I’m looking forward to having the energy to turn my Kinect workout games on when I get home without thinking twice about it. I just have to get a good rhythm going. Damn…seeing kind of foggy right now. Light headed.
He won $100 on the lottery which helped pay for our elite memberships. He vouched for two sweet kids who were ahead of us in line. If he didn’t they wouldn’t have been able to pick up their games or get a wristband. They gave him two extra wristbands for the two kids he vouched for. Because of this he won three items in the raffle held at our local Gamestop. He won a Tshirt, a poster & a promotional poster box thing.
We made several friends and we pretty much all stuck together most of the night. We were the first 25 people in and the first 25 were supposed to get hats. Rigid got the last hat he was number 23…touched I tell you. Definitely touched.
I can see myself playing this with a few friends around the house and having a bit of a giggle. I don't however see myself playing it long term. It would be fun to try out though.
Still I find myself wondering if Dance On Broadway will ever happen and if it'll be even better than Yoostar. Such exciting times I tell you!
My husband and I haven't playe together very much. Firstly because he's just not that into it and secondly because well...we don't share our game space very well. We tried to yesterday in fact and as usual it didn't go very well. I doged a few of his slaps and elbows a few times and smacked him in the gut once. Hell I even bumped his ass out of the way once...only once though because the camera didn't like it very much.
This is once of the many reasons why I would always recommend caution while co-op'ing on Kinect though: